Eid Won't Be The Same

I never spent Eid outside the country, nor away from my family. I thought it would be fun to gather our Muslim friends here, and celebrate Eid. Just to have that feeling of "Eid" We even got special Kuwaiti desserts shipped from back home, to have that feeling around...

It hit me yesterday, that it's not gonna be the same... Staying up all night, waking up really early in the morning! I've always hated waking early, but it was so worth watching my brothers hustle to the mosque, 3la ma Abkhir ightar'hum, take pictures while they're still sleepy ;p

Special Eid Lunch at my aunt's house or the Chalet. And of course el3ediah in envelops is always awesome! ;p My Mom sent me my 3ediah in an envelop, and I was so psyched! Cause God knows how much I did not want it to be deposited in my account, it wouldn't feel like a 3eediah ;p

I'm not home sick... I just extremely miss my brother :( He's my rock, my hero, he's everything to me... I'm just gonna miss his casual call on a Eid night, asking me to have things out and ready for the morning.

The way he puts my 3ediah in an envelope and writes his full name on it, so official! ;p

Akthr wa7d yt7ala 3lai, and makes me feel so special! Most loving and supportive person... The only person who knows how to calm me down, when I get mad... and comforts me when I'm upset, and scolds me when I'm actually wrong ;p Got me out of trouble many times.. out of Chabd to be precise! ;p

Lately, I've been trying not to speak to him over the phone, cause I simply don't wanna cry in public ;p

I got a message from him last night out of nowhere saying:

"Ma ra7 a3ayid hal snah, l2nch mu bl Kuwait" ....... That just broke my heart :( Wla ana li galb a3ayid bdoun my family... I don't want him to feel blue, I wanna get him over here.

I'm not gonna leave you guys with a gloomy ending to this post. Before I left Kuwait, as I was hugging my brother to say goodbye.. He went: "Mu ashoufich intai o Vainglorious arrested bl CNN msaween the victory sign!" Lol Well, I'm not sure we can promise him that ;p

Anyroad, I really don't want to bring anyone down with me... It's been crazy with our studies, and I'm on an emotional roller-coaster.. *sigh*

تقبل الله صيامكم، ودعولنا بالتوفيق

عيدكم مبارك .. وعسى الله يجمعكم مع اهلكم وحبايبكم بالخير ولا فاقد ولا مفقود يا رب